le sigh... how i long to be financially free.. not having to worry about money all the time would be great! not worrying about expenses, bills, transportation fees, saving up for further ed and the likes.. it gets tiring to have to work while studying and all, afterall, i'm still very much a teenager and well, all i just want to do is, well, be a teen! go to movies, hang out with friends, etc, etc. i now i'm ranting right now, but it's just one of those moments when you've really had enough and all you need to do is rant, so please bear with me for a bit. i'm not asking too be rich or a millionaire or anything of that sort, i just wished i had enough to get by, just like all my friends y'know. going to school not having to think of how much have i got in my pocket or simply just asking my parents for pocket money.. but then again, everyone's born with different lifestyles and well, i guess i should be thankful for mine eh...?

awesmacks...time for me to get back to reality..

so it seems that it's been quite some time ago that i'd last written an entry. what's new in my life right now eh? well, the answer is nothing much really or maybe just a lil bit more work load, a lil more stress, and well, should i say a lil closer to exams as well? so, sem exams are round the corner and it's been a pretty hectic start of the year with endless submissions, tests, quizzes and the likes. i've not been really coping well with all the added pressure and all hence i haven't really been much of myself with the occasional on/off-ness and well, should i say minor break down moments which i'm not exactly proud of. but should i say that maybe that's the way i'm coping with it so far? and well those break down sessions actually do make me feel better after awhile. true that it may not really be a healthy way to do so but i guess i'll find a better way to cope somehow in time? i've started running more frequently in the past weeks but maybe not the past few days though :3 and well, running makes me feel so much better. now, THAT'S one healthier way for me to destress! oh, and i should prolly apologise to the people around me cause my minor break down sessions may or may not have affected/scared them somehow.i know that whoever reads my blog may wonder why am i posting something so personal. it's because i'm tired of being so afraid of accepting and confronting the challenges i face that i feel that blogging about it will remind me of these challengers and that when i look back, i'll know that i've managed to overcome it and become a stronger, much wiser person than i was before. everyone's learning and growing with each passing day, and this is my journey, though it may not be smooth sailing, but i'm sure it'll be one which is worthwhile.

Cheers to anyone who reads my blog and have a great weekend ahead! :)

Hah! The title says it all eh? Yup! So, it's been nearly a month into my school vacation already. So, what in the world have i been up to? Well.. the first half of it was spent catching up with some friends and MAJORLY made up of slacking at home and around..Then, i had to drag myself to look for a job of some sort, and it did take me quite a long time mind you. Since i had to look for a job which is in the line of what I'm studying, i finally found one and thankfully i got the job. So now, I'm currently spending my time working and NOT slacking, or more likely rotting at home as what i would always say. This job's pretty cool, with it being still quite new and all, plus they sell organic healthy food! That's another plus point since I think I'ma quite an unhealthy kid since veggies are almost non existent in my diet and at least by working there, I guess I'll get my fill of veggies. Here's to starting to eat healthily! ( I hope..)

So, besides a new job, what do i have to look forward to? Hmmm... let's see.. It's gonna be October pretty soon and that means that my birthday's coming! Though there's not really much excitement there. October also means that Evanescence's newest album is gonna hit the shelves pretty soon and that the next book in the House of Night Series aka Destined is also gonna hit the stores pretty soon! Now, THAT'S certainly something to look forward to! OH!!! And there's also the Malaysia trip that I'll be going on with some of my peers! WOOHOO! Can't wait for the shopping and sightseeing! I know i sound a wee bit too excited cause some may go like "what?! it's only malaysia and you're so happy?" But hey, I've never went abroad on a holiday let alone to Malaysia with my peers! So yeah... those are certainly a few of the things i'm looking forward to..

So cheerios!
Until next time, when and if i feel like blogging again! :)

so, it's been a week since school started. so how do i find poly life so far? hmmm... well, it ain't as slack as it seems to be, for my course at least. my class mates are pretty awesome people that's for sure. classes have been pretty much going okay so far. one thing we all agree on would be that we have invested quite a large sum of our pocket money so far. but hey, it's an investment either way right? hmm... for lessons, we have lectures, tutorial and lab sessions. lectures being lectures are mostly quite dry but it pays to concentrate though. hadn't really had any tutorials so far, so i can't quite say anything about it yet. as for lab sessions, i've only had one so far, which was in the kitchen and it was quite interesting although we had to stand for 5 hrs consecutively. but then again, it's part of the learning process. the canteen food is pretty good in terms of taste and cost (the one in my school at least). Well, all in all it's been quite a long week (even though it's only the first week). Thankfully we have the long weekends thanks to labour day. I'm pretty much stoked for the oncoming weeks cause that's when a whole lot of new things are beginning.

these days, life seems so messed up. i'm just so freaking annoyed with my life right now. what's a father when he asks his own children to pay for their education? what's a family when there's no feeling of love? what's life when everything seems to be going downhill? i just don't know what else i can do in my life to change things. nothing seems to be working, nothing's changing. i'm stuck and i can't move and seriously i just feel so bloody exhausted right now. just being plain sick and tired of everything, the daily routines, the frustrations, the people... what can i do when i'm only one person? life.live.love.lost....

It's Feb already! It means a whole new lot of things, like the fact that i need to start searching for a brand new job, it's Chinese New Year! and i will be starting school in less than 3 months. So, if you're wondering where in the world did i end up after 'o's, the answer would be in the course i've always wanted, which is the baking and culinary science course in Temasek Polytechnic. Getting a place in poly would mean that i have to spend a whole lot more money on my education... which is where the hard part comes in. I am looking forward to the start of school but i am also grateful that it's still a few months away as it means that i can earn some extra cash while i have the time to. New school, new friends, new beginning. Oh, boy! I can and cannot wait for it! How contradicting, but that's how life is, the tension of opposites.... :)
Anyway, Happy Lunar New Year to those who are celebrating and Happy Holidays to those who aren't.

hmmm... let's see, the new job has been going fairly smooth so far with the exception of a few cuts and a swollen wrist, it seems to be going fine. well, maybe also with the disadvantage of smelling like fish every time we knock off from work. the people there are quite friendly and very helpful. though it seems that what ever job i work, it always seem that i have to communicate in chinese although my chinese ain't that good. left work early today due to some indigestion which left me puking my guts out (that may be a lil bit exaggerating, i did puke, but obviously not my guts out). it's a really interesting experience as i get to see how a food factory operates. well, it's a long weekend break for me since i only work on weekdays plus monday is the day where we get back our results. Oh, boy! the moment we've all been waiting for is just right round the corner. okay, i guess i'll end here tonight.


until next time....